June 2022 – Cam's Tech Blog

Posted on June 28, 2022June 25, 2022 by Cam

Welcome to the Trap House

I remember being on my last dime and getting a call to start a new job somewhere on a part of time where I have never been on before. I remember getting excited about starting the position and I pull up to the new place to work. It was in the hood, “yes I am from the hood myself”.

My first day I remember pulling up in the parking lot trying to find somewhere to park and the parking lot was full. It smelled like weed, sex, and stanky thrash. I pull up to the first spot I see and I see people in their car smoking weed. I got high by just smelling it in my car so I decided to find another spot where I felt comfortable. I get out of the car and walk in the front door. I see that they are interviewing on the spot and hiring on the spot so I realized that it was call center. I have never worked at one before, this one was such a rememberable place to work at.

As I went inside of the building, this place had such a bad odor and it was very dirt. People had all sort of stuff sitting at their desk. I remember walking in the bathroom and it smelted awful.

I meet my manager that day and the people on my team. The two guys that were on the team loved to argue about unnecessary stuff that would get them in a heated argument. That’s another story you will hear at another time. I sat at a nasty desk where men needed to clean up after themselves. I could not complain about the work conditions because I needed the money that I did not have in my account.

Horrible Bosses

Have you ever had an horrible boss?

Today, I am going to go down memory line on this on. I really could not stand this person and how superior this person though they were. No one should be taking on any mental abuse at work like this. He would come in and change the whole mood of the whole room from happy smiling to I am in a bad mood. If you have such a bad energy or not in a good mood do not kill anyone’s vibe.

One of the lessons that I learned from this situation is to not let someone have that much power over your life. Negativity can easily be distributed to other’s quickly than positivity.

Dealing with this person had me dealing with health issues as well because of dealing with the mental stress. Sometimes it would make me sick to my stomach on how horrible this person was.

My Thoughts Are Not In A Good Place

One thing a lot of people do not talk about is depression. Depression does exist and it is real. People deal with this everyday and do not have much support to lean on if others do not understand what you are going through and can not relate with your feelings or thought.

Yes, I have been through depression and it has been an easy road to deal with because I did not grow up in an easy home. I remember when I was in High School, I got made fun of because I had Eczema at that moment and not much was known about this growing up. I also dealt with the not being the prettiest girl in the whole. I got tired of dealing with the pressure of what I was dealing with and wanted to end my life because I never thought I was worthy of living.

As I got older I started to begin to drink very heavily when I was in college to get rid of all the pain that I was going through as a person. I was going through family issues, stress of school, toxic relationships, and trying to fit in. I was so gone in my mind that I was hoping to one day not to wake up.

One day I was talking to mutual friend that cared about me and suggested I go talk to a counselor. I decided to go talk to a counselor and started to heal. Never be afraid to go to counseling. Just know each one of us has purpose in life. If you ever have those types of feeling never be scared to tell someone who cares. If you do not feel that person exist be sure to contact a counselor or a program that can help you.