July 2022 – Cam's Tech Blog

Posted on July 30, 2022July 24, 2022 by Cam

And Her Name is Me

Mental Health is very important to me as a person because I am warrior who has overcame Depression. Depression is not often talked about where I grew up at. As I get older you still have things that can trigger your emotions. “Are you prepared to overcome these emotions of what you are feeling?”

I remember buying this album when I was in college studying. I did not love myself as a person. I was looking love in all of the wrong places because I have never experience that feeling in my life and I often saw it in movies. I was never told I was pretty or received complements or had great encouragement in my younger life.

My first official time in experiencing that feeling was by my college friends who I had that real connection with like a family. These people taught me how to “Love Myself” and letting me know that my situation was not ideal at all. I had learned in my younger years how to have confidence in myself and know I had friends who cared for my well being.

One of the biggest regrets I wish I would have should have chosen myself more when I trying to be in relationships with the opposite sex. I easily learned that it was not to be in the situation that I was in. I had met this guy my freshman year and we had a lot in common. He was an upperclassman at the time. Things changed my sophomore year in our relationship and yes he started to show who he really was, “Player”. I really did not know what to do because I was inexperience with being in a relationship and very naive with myself. I wanted the attention when I should have chosen myself. This person made me hate myself even more and change me into someone I knew I never was. Instead of seeking the wrong attention I should have chose “Myself”.

Now that I am older I have learned to wait for the right person and wait on God’s timing and not my timing. I did things that I wanted to do and not by God’s timing. I have learned to be a stronger person and learn from my mistakes. Yes we are humans and do make mistakes. I have learned to forgive myself and chose “Me”.

It’s Okay to Cry

This blog post is about Mental Health and how important it is to take care of yourself.

As a career woman I have been through stressing situations at my work place where I did not have a work life balance to rest and reflect. It’s easy to get burned out at a job when you are good at what you do and no one wants to help these users.

I may look strong on the outside but I am emotional on the inside. Deal with work stress has caused me to cry, become an alcoholic, and feel unworthy of being a human.

I remember when I started a new job in a new city and how hard it was to transition to what I was used to working for and with it. I was introduced to the Good Ole Boys club. Women were not respected in this area or promoted. During this time of life I was stressed out with this new place and knowing that it was not fair at all. I was doing all of this work and not being paid my worth at all. There would be times I would go to the bathroom to go cry to relive my stress. Sometimes it would turn into going into a conference room or the car to do so.

I have experienced stress in a workspace but not like this. I was holding down a whole company that’s around the world by myself. The worst feeling I ever felt was working during Covid and being the only one on my team going in. During that time I was not recognized for doing that or even promoted. I was told I did not deserve a promotion or raise by a manager who barely knew me and he gave someone a raise who was barely working for 6 months. It was not fair to me and yes I was heartbroken inside. I was upset and I started to cry and ball my eyes out. Stress, unfairness, and loss of insight of where I was going in my career was on my mind. The thoughts I had in my mind is “Working in Information Technology as Woman worth it” and “Do I give the fight to for future woman in my career”.

Meeting Baby Dee

I was working at the Trap House when I met Baby Dee. I remember she was over 6 feet tall and a big girl. She loved to eat good. She had braces at the time and everything under the sun you can imagine was in the mouth. When you have braces you are supposed to not eat certain foods.

I remember one day I was working and she came up to me to ask about he computer. It was not working. I went over to her desk and talk about all sorts of food at that desk. She had a very funny personality. The first few things she wanted to know was: “What I was eating for lunch”? She started asking me why I was working at this place. I remember she wanted me to buy her lunch that day and had the nerves to threaten me if I did not buy her something she was going to break her computer so I could come back out and look for me.

This is the only the beginning and I have plenty of stories about this person and how hilarious she was.