Posted on by Cam

It’s Okay to Cry

This blog post is about Mental Health and how important it is to take care of yourself.

As a career woman I have been through stressing situations at my work place where I did not have a work life balance to rest and reflect. It’s easy to get burned out at a job when you are good at what you do and no one wants to help these users.

I may look strong on the outside but I am emotional on the inside. Deal with work stress has caused me to cry, become an alcoholic, and feel unworthy of being a human.

I remember when I started a new job in a new city and how hard it was to transition to what I was used to working for and with it. I was introduced to the Good Ole Boys club. Women were not respected in this area or promoted. During this time of life I was stressed out with this new place and knowing that it was not fair at all. I was doing all of this work and not being paid my worth at all. There would be times I would go to the bathroom to go cry to relive my stress. Sometimes it would turn into going into a conference room or the car to do so.

I have experienced stress in a workspace but not like this. I was holding down a whole company that’s around the world by myself. The worst feeling I ever felt was working during Covid and being the only one on my team going in. During that time I was not recognized for doing that or even promoted. I was told I did not deserve a promotion or raise by a manager who barely knew me and he gave someone a raise who was barely working for 6 months. It was not fair to me and yes I was heartbroken inside. I was upset and I started to cry and ball my eyes out. Stress, unfairness, and loss of insight of where I was going in my career was on my mind. The thoughts I had in my mind is “Working in Information Technology as Woman worth it” and “Do I give the fight to for future woman in my career”.

Advertisements
Posted on by Cam

My Thoughts Are Not In A Good Place

One thing a lot of people do not talk about is depression. Depression does exist and it is real. People deal with this everyday and do not have much support to lean on if others do not understand what you are going through and can not relate with your feelings or thought.

Yes, I have been through depression and it has been an easy road to deal with because I did not grow up in an easy home. I remember when I was in High School, I got made fun of because I had Eczema at that moment and not much was known about this growing up. I also dealt with the not being the prettiest girl in the whole. I got tired of dealing with the pressure of what I was dealing with and wanted to end my life because I never thought I was worthy of living.

As I got older I started to begin to drink very heavily when I was in college to get rid of all the pain that I was going through as a person. I was going through family issues, stress of school, toxic relationships, and trying to fit in. I was so gone in my mind that I was hoping to one day not to wake up.

One day I was talking to mutual friend that cared about me and suggested I go talk to a counselor. I decided to go talk to a counselor and started to heal. Never be afraid to go to counseling. Just know each one of us has purpose in life. If you ever have those types of feeling never be scared to tell someone who cares. If you do not feel that person exist be sure to contact a counselor or a program that can help you.

Advertisements
Posted on by Cam

No Church In The Wild

Story from the Trap House, I remember when I first started working here. It was so different from what I was used to working at. The people were from another planet that I had once been in before. My first day was crazy when I met the team for the first time. It was already too much drama between 2 of the co workers who were working there at the moment.

I remember it was last day at the Trap House and I just got in to work my last day. Guess what! The drama took place because of the 2 people could not agree and the other person was tired of dealing with the mental abuse. As they argued and voices started to escalate. I asked one of the guys to go take a walk and I got ignored. So the other guy got upset about the other guy talking about his car. Bam, he hit the desk sectional and started aiming at the other guy. It got so loud that HR had came to the scene and the security guard ran up to separate the guys. Both guys were let go based on their actions and how they dealt with the situation.

It opened up the door for me to get hired on full time. I learned from the situation that you can have toxic coworkers in your workplace who are not in your corner. Also to keep you personal and private life at home.

Advertisements
Posted on by Cam

Is Society Uncomfortable with Confident Women?

I recently saw this last week and was glad that these women were willing to talk about this topic.

It’s okay to be confident in the office place and speak your mind about things you are not comfortable about. We live in a world where men in the office just want us to be seen and heard. Times have changed and Women have a voice to say what they want to now.

Advertisements
Posted on by Cam

Yes We Can

Shout out to all the women out there in this world who have chosen a life to work in Information Technology. This post is for you and to keep you encouraged in this journey. It is a man’s world in this field and we often get discourage because it’s not many of us around due to the fact that you have to deal with following: sexual harassment, discrimination, male egos, mental aggression, mental abuse etc. Yes, I have been through it all just like you.

Times have changed and it’s time to accept our female counterparts in these roles. Women are still fighting now for the same rights. You can have all the knowledge, skills, and sassiness to do this role but yet feel alone when it comes to encouragement. I have been the only black woman in my department doing the same role the men are doing. Yes, I have opened up a door at one of the companies I have worked for to another women who wants to pursue this field.

Here is a playlist that I have created that celebrates women. Trust me, I do listen to this playlist when I am in need of encouragement.

  • “I’m Every Woman” by Chaka Khan
  • “Q.U.E.E.N.” by Jonelle Monae and Erykah Badu
  • “Independent Women” by Destiny’s Child
  • “Respect” by Aretha Franklin
  • “Girl on Fire” by Alicia Keys
  • “Just a Girl” by No Doubt
  • “Man! I Feel Like A Woman” by Shania Twain
  • “Fighter” by Christina Aguilera
  • “Run the World (Girls)” by Beyonce
  • “Rise Up” by Andra Day